I started this blog because I have the sinking suspicion that I have kept myself from something that I like doing....Meditation.  I believe that after my last experience over 10 years ago, I have not been able to reach a meditative state.  The first major post will go in depth to the "MOAM" (mother of all meditations) that led me to a non-meditative life. Then I will go in-depth to my first 3 years of meditation, including the phases of "Awareness" that I reached with their descriptions.  

Why am I doing this?

Because I believe openly writing about what led me to not doing it, will change my subconscious mind, and allow me to do so again.

To be honest....I miss it.